Snow white had it easy.

When I was a little girl I was going to live happily ever after.. as I grew so did my expectations and somewhere around the age of 12 that included my very own song with all the animals singing and possibly cleaning my room with me. A few years later that once upon a time included a happily ever after, a song with the animals, AND my very own prince charming. White horse and all I'm talking deluxe prince charming people. Disney gives us all these princesses and happily ever afters, but it's not just Disney. Disney just ties in my movie theory and  my own happily ever after dream. I remember staring awe faced at the television as I watched Cinderella, Snow White, and Sleeping beauty, but the same holds true all these years later.

When you go to a movie a part of you leaves reality, and for that two hours reality is suspended. But when that movie is over and you step into the daylight or the evening breeze the spell is broken, and the real world is once again at your finger tips waiting for you to claim your story.

Books, Movies these both give the mind something to ponder, the rip the reality from us and thus takes flight fighting aliens, a total hottie fighting the dragon, winning the big game or race, there is no limiting it.

Life doesn't come in a pretty box with a ribbon, that is something I'm very slowly learning. Even after all that I still whole heatedly believe in my Happily ever after. I know now that I am going to have to go take my happily ever after.

So here is my encouragement to you, I put my combat boots on face paint, I am dressed for full on combat. I am going to fight for what I want, and I so very much hope that the rest of my generation gets the hint and puts their boots on to. The only thing that should ever be handed out without a struggle is forgiveness.

Don't worry I've got my heels in my duffel to :)

-H.F.

Glory in the Flower

What though the radiance which was once so bright
Be now for ever taken from my sight,
Though nothing can bring back the hour
Of splendor in the grass, of glory in the flower;
We will grieve not, rather find
Strength in what remains behind;
In the primal sympathy
Which having been must ever be;
In the soothing thoughts that spring
Out of human suffering;
In the faith that looks through death,
In years that bring the philosophic mind.

Almost twelve hours earlier I was blissfully laying by the pool, thinking how blessed I have been that I have yet to see real tragedy and anguish. A car wrapped around a tree and a friend taking their own life. But now there I go jumping ahead of myself again.

DAY OF FUN!! Thats how my Saturday morning started.. I left the movie in the early hours and after four short hours of sleep I woke up again, coffee with mom, and then out to Lewisville to a HUGE house to lounge by the pool and eat fijitas.. THAT is how my " Day Of Fun" began, you should know that as far as people go I have seen very very very little tragedy, minimal anguish, and really it's been a easy life. Of course after thinking this I was informed that a friend had died, 26, and full of life, a fabulous guy. How in the world could God have taken that guy? He's so young, and such promise!! I just talked to him for his birthday!! A little cloud starts to hover over my "Day of Fun" but I press on. Laying by the pool of the "mini-mansion" drinking a mimosa i get the text that no one should ever have to recieve. My only thought was and still is " GOD WHY WOULD HE TAKE HIS OWN LIFE?!" -- Day Of Fun is officially rained on and struck by the sad stick. After finishing 'Day &Night of fun" I make my way home... mind you its around 2am only to find that i have to take the back way to my house and pull up to my street only to find that there is a car wrapped around a tree in my front yard. He was 23 and just bought his car today, been out drinking with his friends took the dip in the road to fast and took out the bottom quarter of the light pole before being wrapped around the tree... My heart was already hurting when the officer approched me and talk about foot in mouth syndrome, my first question " Officer is everyone ok?" He died on impact and his dad showed up nearly thirty min's later to see what was left of his son and car... I've never seen anything like it it's shaken my to the core. Seeing five firemen using the jaw's of life to cut someone out of a car when the person has been gone from the second he took out the lightpole... I cannot even begin to describe the hurt and anger and unbelievable sadness.

My day of fun was exactally that. I laughed and laughed and spent time with friends who love me and with a mother who loves me. But laced with that joy is the knowledge that no matter how old you are or how young there are some things that no one should ever see and seeing a parent outlive their child is one of them. The choices we make in life don't only reflect in our own future they reflect is so many others as well, cherish the life you have because you only get one... and remember the splendor in the grass and..

the glory in the flower.